Trapped. (That one was influenced by lack of Insulin.)

I have as far as is likely to be possible, disconnected from the vibration of receptivity to the guidance of calling that girl. 

I get positive synchronicities around calling her. I get negative synchronicities around thoughts like: 'I can't even remember what to say anymore.' I have disconnected.

But I can't. I still feel it all but I have zero faith the situation can be worked out.

So, am I unpolarised? Is there any hope?

Can't return to music. Can't risk going into high vibration again and being treated like that.

No one is going to help.